This week I did something for myself that I haven’t done in a long while. I went to a guided meditation class. A few years ago I was in a very bad head space. To be honest I felt lost. I was pushing myself through for my children and husband, but inside myself I was feeling at a loss. I was unhappy, but couldn’t figure out why. To say I lacked energy is an understatement, everything felt like it took such an effort.
There was a few things that got me through, a huge part of me finding inner peace was rediscovering my passion for writing.
But it was also meditation, and mindfulness that help guide me through the difficult times.
On a wintertime walk through mist and hills, I stopped and stood silent. In that moment I saw life. I noticed the birds making their homes in the trees, I saw clouds moving and changing form above me. I became mindful of all that was around me, and all I wanted to do was write. I realised that for me without writing, I wasn’t truly breathing. Without writing I would never be at peace. I started writing that day and haven’t stopped since. Through meditation and mindfulness I rediscovered a passion I had long pushed away.
This week when I meditated, I had a moment where I realised that lately I have been forgetting about myself. Forgetting that I matter. I realised that I am hurting inside, that I am feeling a little broken. As I began to meditate I felt a release of silent tears. I knew that I haven’t been a friend to myself lately. That somewhere over the past year I have forgotten to speak to myself with kindness again. Old habits are creeping back. It scares me. I have come so far since that day I walked through the mist, and I am proud of myself for that, and I realise now that I need to step back a little. I need to refocus on caring for myself. I also need to go back to what I love the most, and that is writing my fictional stories.
So if I am a little more quiet for now, it is because I need to be. I am still here, I am just needing a moment to be mindful of what I need in order to stop feeling so broken. I am ok I promise, I just need a little time. And with school holidays coming up here too, I want to make quality time with my family a priority.
For those of you who link up with #mg I apologise, but I will be taking a break. The linky will return come August. Please continue to follow my blog, and schedule in joining in with #mg again in August. In the meantime I will be reading your blogs too.
One thing I talk about a lot here on my blog, and on my Instagram feed is being yourself, being honest and being authentic. So if I want to be honest and authentic I have to admit when I need a little time. It is so important that we recognise the signs of being burnt out, before we get to that point. And that we care enough about ourselves, and those we love to say ‘I need a rest’. And of course in the spirit of being authentic I will now share with you my absolute favourites that were shared with my Instagram Hashtag #livingfearlesslyauthentic this week! (I will continue to feature my favourites each week on Mondays).
These amazing photos of real life were captured by;
@lifeatcookscabin @lisapomerantzster @midwifeandlife.
@mediamummy. @messywawa. @themumatronblog.
Take care, and thanks for joining me, love Mackenzie xx
PS: I would love your advice on my previous post “when did I become the uncool mum?” Please stop by and let me know your thoughts.
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Enjoy a well earned break 🙂 Taking time to look after yourself and spending time with your family is really important. Hugs!
Thank you so much for your support xx
Take care Mac…we all need a break to focus on ourselves. I’ve been going to yoga this past week on some days and finding it quite helpful. Do reach out if you need to…I’m only a message away 🙂 Much love xx
Yoga is wonderful. Thank you lovely, and the same goes for you, I am just a message away xx
I’m finding that I just need the time at the moment, as there’s so much going on. It’s such a positive in so many ways. Enjoy the time you can give to yourself, your other writing and your family…and breathe xxx
Thank you, I can not tell you what it means to have such great support xx
Hi Mg I live real your writing is .I also love that you are always trying .Sometimes we have to go on trying till things get better but not be hard on yourself .Keep being kind to yourself and keep writing .It’s the best way to heal.But let go if things which don’t matter .I will look forward to August .I have missed a few link ups but I never forget to read your posts .Prayers for you and your family .Have a wonderful holiday .That’s the best about digital entrepreneurship!
Hi Mg I love how real your writing is .I also love that you are always trying .Sometimes we have to go on trying till things get better, but not be hard on yourself .Keep being kind to yourself and keep writing .It’s the best way to heal.But let go of things which don’t matter .I will look forward to August .I have missed a few link ups but I never forget to read your posts .Prayers for you and your family .Have a wonderful holiday .That’s the best about digital entrepreneurship!Your blog will be fine
Thank you, it does feel risky taking some time, but I will be around, just really need this. Thank you so much for your continued kindness and support xx
Take care Mac. We all need to step back from time to time, to nurture ourselves and put ourselves first.
Thank you so much, your kind words mean so much xx
Hugs, to you. You are right we forget self-compassion and self-love so often. I’m sure this break will do a world of good to you. Take care.
Thank you so much xx
Good for you!
Sometimes I think I want to do everything, all at once, but that’s not possible. I take on too much, then have to pare back to what’s essential. When you find the right balance, it’s perfect.
I think all of us need a break. Have fun, relax, enjoy your time with family and get back soonest. You will be missed sorely Mac.
I have recently discovered a meditation app that has helped me sleep better. I do yoga in the morning, Tai Chi in the afternoon and I use my meditation app at night. It has been so helpful in so many ways. I never thought mediation would be something that I would find myself doing but when you need to fight off depression and hope to become more mindful in life, it has worked out well for me. Enjoy your break!
Ah Mac, you know that we’ll all be here when mg returns to our screens. But also remember that we’re not just behind your screens; I feel that we’ve built up an incredibly supportive and authentic virtual friendship (along with the other linkers and other bloggers too). You take that time for yourself, for your family x
I know how you are feeling Mackenzie because I feel that way sometimes. I think taking some time for yourself and recognising that you need it is a good step. I’ve been blogging for 2.5 years and I fear that it takes over our lives. We feel we need to keep producing when in reality – and this is harsh – most people won’t even miss it in their busy lives. Of course, regular readers will but they will understand and always be there. Link ups are very time consuming so that is a good idea to take a break. Take care my lovely and look after YOU! xxx
Take the break that you need to in order to regain your focus Mac. We all need to do it at some point. Well done on actually being able to see the wood & the trees and not just one or the other. You’ll feel like a million dollars after a break. Re-focused, re-energised, & positive about yourself for the future. Thanks a million for the tweet and when you’re back, I’ll be linking up with you for sure. Chat soon, Ross.
Part of #livingfearlesslyauthentic is honoring those times you need to take good care of yourself and your family. I totally understand and give you all the support you need. You have a friend in me Mac, and all I want for you is goodness and love. <3 Wishing your time needed is as special as you need it to be my friend. We will chat soon, I am certain! <3
Its so easy to get caught up in all that we need to do for others and forget about all that we need to do for ourselves. Take care MG, and enjoy your time away.
I’m so glad you have a platform where you can feel safe to be honest and you’re doing the right thing. Lots of love Xx
It’s important to recognise when we need to take a step back. Enjoy your blog break 🙂
Thanks for linking up to #AnythingGoes 🙂
Debbie
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