“Secretly we’re all a little more absurd than we make ourselves out to be.” – J K Rowling

I had to have a little giggle to myself when I saw this quote today. Why? Well quite honestly I think if my friends thought I was secretly more absurd than I am in front of them they would have me locked away for life. Don’t worry all you people who know me well, to you I show my true self, yes that totally weird girl you all know so well is really no more weird I promise. (Although you may not have seen me singing by myself in the car?????)

When I first meet most people they see the introverted me, or as some people have referred to me in the past, they see me as the snob. I am reserved in front of most people I first meet, although some people bring out my crazy side upon first meeting, (you totally know who you are). But get to know me and suddenly you see why I really don’t need alcohol or drugs in my life, I am weird enough as it is.

Recently I turned 40 YAY, seriously YAY, I feel more confident to be myself than I ever have, (oh gosh watch out world), my dad did a speech at our family dinner, in it he said that he was glad that I still have the silliness I had as a child! I was actually not expecting him to say that, but I was actually really happy he did. It made me feel grateful that he appreciates me for my wacky ways and loves that I am who I am. (My siblings will happily agree I am the weird one in our family).

For most of my life I felt like I was annoying my family, that my parents wanted me to be quiet like my older sister. I thought she was perfect (well she is actually, I adore her), but I thought I could never be as ‘perfect as her’, as ‘beautiful’, or as ‘likeable’. But I figured it out finally, I am as perfect as I am perfectly me, perfectly flawed, perfectly the person I am meant to be!

My sister is awesome and so am I.

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I am happy being me, I am happy being the silly auntie, daughter, mum and friend,

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but I am also caring, devoted, loyal, supportive, a super listener and trustworthy. Yes I can be serious, I can be anxious, insecure and even down, I can cry, get mad, and hold an intelligent conversation, but I can also be that weird, absurd girl who knows how to have the best time with friends, family and of course my hubby. When you read my blog, or watch my Vlogs you are getting me. there are many facets to me, as there is to everyone. Yes there are things I keep private, and I do write under a pseudonym (if you missed that check out this post), but I am me, I am the real me! I guess that is why my blog is Reflections From Me.

What about you, do you think you are more absurd than people know? Do you embrace the real you?

Thanks for joining me, love Mackenzie xx

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This post was written as part of a Friday Reflections prompt“Secretly we’re all a little more absurd than we make ourselves out to be.” – J K Rowling

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